Is it SPRING yet?

Troy and I have both been having trouble with our allergies lately, and although Spring is an asthmatics worst nightmare, we're both ready for a change in weather. The COLD winter really did us in. We both were very excited to get another chance to see snow in Raleigh this year, but the majority of the season was spent inside freezing our hinneys off! (I just said hinney, haha!) Troy's been super busy as usual with Law school, but he has done an excellent job, once again! He is ready to be DONE with studying, at least for the summer. Almost 2 years down, 1 to go...I CAN'T WAIT! I miss him terribly, especially on the weekends when he is locked away upstairs with books the size of small homes studying :( And I know he misses me as well :) Almost there babe!

This summer is going to be full of excitement for us. Troy just landed an internship back home with a law office and we're moving back that way for 2 months! YAY! I am super excited!! It has been hard being away from friends and family so being able to live right there with them this summer will be nice. I am even more excited that I get to be home with Jennifer and Matt and their precious baby boy who is due to enter the world in mid June! :)

I guess it would also be a good point to discuss my panic attacks i've been having since Christmas. The level of anxiety in a person should be very minimal, but for some reason (stress) my levels have been sky high which often leads to unexplained attacks. The symptoms are no fun, but now that I have learned what they are and that they can't hurt me, I can better control them. Although they DEFINITELY still suck, I am aware of their presence and know that they will pass. It has also been very helpful to learn that a LOT of people suffer from the same thing I do- high anxiety leading to attacks. I have also been very sick with a sinus infection, topped off with the stomach flu which made things seem 10X worse, but i am feeling much better from that now too! I have also learned that God will NEVER give you more than you can handle, and this has been a very true testimony of my life the past few months. Symptoms very in every person, but when an attack is coming on I start to feel very nervous, shaky, shortness of breath, chest pain, light headed, feelings of unreality, scared, and honestly like I am going to die. These suck, but once they pass I am OK. They are basically the same feelings of a person who is having a heart attack, so that is why the first one I had over Christmas led me straight to the ER. THANKFULLY though, the past week especially has been great! I don't know if it is the warm sunny weather we've had or what, but I haven't had any feelings of anxiety and i've been in a much better mood overall! Thanks to GOD only, because I know without him by my side I would not be where I am right now.

Now, wasn't that a lot to take in? It feels better to be on the other side of the storm where I can talk about it freely and hope to offer some hope to someone else who is in my shoes! God has definitely been good to us and we are learning to thank Him for all our blessings, and all our struggles, because without them we wouldn't learn to lean on him during times of need!